Hi! My name is Katie.
I’ve been battling anxiety my whole life, an eating disorder for a decade, and depression on and off for the past 5 years. I’m on a mission to break stigmas and ruin assumptions about mental health to create a better understanding of mental health disorders for those who struggle with them, and those who don’t.
If you struggle with anxiety, depression, eating disorder, or anything else, I wanted there to be a place for you. Actually, maybe I wanted a place for us. Scratch that- I really just wanted a place for me, and I hope that it brings hope and encouragement to just one other person.
Not long ago anxiety was controlling my life. I had no idea that anxiety was what was causing me to act as I did. Massive mood swings, panic attacks, fear, constantly feeling sick, chronic headaches… everything that I explained away with stress, PMS, or school. I had learned to cope with that anxiety and manage it through controlling food. I would either restrict food so that hunger would distract me from anxious feelings, or I would binge eat and then spend hours in the gym. Depression comes and goes depending on the season. Back then, it depended on how well I managed my anxiety.
These last two years I have been on a journey through intense treatment for my eating disorder. So I have entirely disrupted every coping mechanism I had for my anxiety disorder, too. Which pretty much just sent me into a depression and whirlwind of all of them combined. Man, what a complicated mess of a person I was- and still can be. But man, have I found Hope and Victory in this fight.
I’m in no way, shape, or form an expert on any topic within mental health. Nor do I have any fancy certificate hanging on my wall qualifying me to give anyone advice. All I am is a girl with a battle story, a keyboard, and oftentimes a broken filter who gets really protective and really passionate about people who don’t have people to advocate for them. I want to provide resources, stories, and encouragement to strong, capable, beautiful women who happen to struggle with the same things that I do. So that’s why OnSolidBrock.com was born.
Struggling with a mental illness makes you no less of a person than the one who doesn’t. It doesn’t make you weak. It doesn’t make you a failure. It doesn’t even make you inadequate.
Actually, I’m convinced that any person who fights mental illness is among the strongest, most capable, and most faithful people on the planet.
But what I have learned is that we have to fight the true Fight. We have to let our Savior do the actual fighting when it comes to our mental illness. There are not enough self-help books in the world to fix what is broken in us. Nor is there enough strength in us to try and fight for ourselves. We are born broken, and for some of us, that comes in the form of struggling against our own mind and emotions. That is OK. What isn’t okay is that we keep trying to fight for ourselves and keep trying to fix what can’t be fixed.
We’ve got to turn to the Salvation that has already been offered to us. For some reason that’s the hardest part of this whole thing.
So, if you are struggling you are not alone. I’m here, too. And if you have read this far- man, Jesus has already been too good to me.
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